Thoughts

I feel like I am falling off the bandwagon. I am still counting calories and making sure that I am maintaining my healthy lifestyle, but I feel like it is getting more and more difficult.

I have more days where I want to buy a family size bag of chips and a 2 liter of Dr. Pepper and munch, munch, munch, munch. I have resisted so far, but it is getting harder to fight my inner grazer.

I have been sick the last couple of days, so that decreases my appetite and that has helped to counter the munchies. I've also started drinking coffee this week to help soothe my sore throat and I think the caffeine is also helping as an appetite suppressant. I think that my ultimate fear is failure. I am afraid that I will have worked my butt off to lose weight and that, in a matter of months, I will put it all back on if I don't keep toeing that fine line of calories.

Right now, I am eating 750 calories fewer a day than what I need to maintain my weight to be able to lose 1.5 lbs. weekly. It is crazy to me that I will be allowed to eat 2300 calories a day when I have reached my goal and still be able to maintain my weight. I am really going to have to look into it .

Once I feel better, I am going to start working out again with hiking and bike riding. I think that will make me feel better about my lifestyle change and feel less like I am sinking into the failed diet quagmire.