I was walking around my mom's house in a bikini on my way to the pool, and my sister stopped what she was doing and said, "Dear Ruth, You are hot." Really made me feel good to have all my hard work recognized by someone whose opinion I value. I also went to a costume party this weekend as a mermaid and didn't even feel remotely self conscious in my mermaid costume which led little to the imagination. Someone said I had guts to wear it, to which I replied, "No, see, that's the point. I DON'T have a gut, so I can wear it" ZING!
I know I sound quite big headed, and I know that. There is a very good reason for that: I may never look this good again. I have been in good shape in the past, and have always gone back to bad eating habits and a sedentary lifestyle that resulted in me losing definition and stamina. No matter how good I've look, which I only ever realized in hindsight, I've still always dealt with being self conscious and fixated on the imperfections.
Well, no more.
I am going to enjoy my new body and savor every minute I have in it. I will recognize the beauty and power of my body and relish it. I will not stare at the scale and gasp, I will stare in the mirror and admire the contours of my body. I will focus on the excellence of what I have molded my body into.
My husband and I at the party.
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