I am just so done. I have been eating all these healthy, delicious foods, but I just wants a mother effing donut, some banana ice cream, and about half a pepperoni pizza downed with a Dr. Pepper. I am tired of saying, "I can't, I'm on the Paleo diet." I know I am getting some great results, but they are almost not worth the obsession I have with food right now. It's not that I'm hungry, I just want these very specific foods.
I want crispy toast with butter. I want oily melty cheese with salty meat on warm fluffy bread. I want a sweet fluffy delectable donut with some cool and crunchy banana ice cream with almonds. I want to eat like I'm in the 21st century.
I've been reading and days 8-15 have these cravings, but I started on day 6. I'm only 3 days in and I have these vivid dreams of what I'm going to eat every night. The anxiety I have after I feel them is akin to how a Catholic girl feels when she loses her virginity. I think, "No, all that hard work for nothing, I ate that, I'm so weak, how could I let myself down!" Yeah, it's bad for me, but it's just a bleeping donut!
I am really thinking I am going to cave and eat some sugar. This is just so extreme and I've never done well with really strict diets. I just want to eat crappy food! Just once in 9 days, good God I want a donut.
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